On the
Spiritual Roots of Loafing…
There is a deeply spiritual element in spurning
ritual to do something completely different: it’s liberating, this idea that
you can just go off the grid. Call it going AWOL. No permissions taken; no
explanations provided. This is not about vacation or travel. There aren't any
surveys or statistics to cite but it’s a pretty good guess that not everyone
can or wants to do it. It is an attitude that for me has begun to take hold as I
grow older. Maybe it stems from a growing awareness that in the end, everyone
goes AWOL.
No; this is not a lament about growing old or a
nervous look at death. On the contrary, it’s about life and joy and sensual
pleasures; about the free spirit and the liberated mind that enables the
impromptu life.
Periodic trips to Goa fall in that category. They
let us explore the elasticity of time in which breakfast is on the table and
every bite of buttered poi (Goan
bread) with homemade jam satisfies so
much you think you’ll never have lunch. Thinking of lunch while eating your
breakfast is the impromptu state of mind in which minutes expand to fill an
hour; the same minutes disappear in a fleet rush of seconds to leave you
breathless, as you finish the clams or put down the book.
In the end, you become so embroiled in non-purposive
activity that you lose track of time and begin to live on the wax and
wane of nature: sunlight, moonlight, stars, dusk, dawn, rain, breezes,
birdsong, rustling palms and the scent of the sea.
You lounge, you laze, go on long drives; read
books and magazines all day or go to the beach and watch the Arabian Sea churn
and roil in the Monsoon or gently roll at other times. You look for exciting
new restaurants, cafes and watering holes; hook up with local friends and shoot
the breeze late into the night; catch a movie at Panjim’s slick Inox cinema and
in the auditorium, eat bhel instead of popcorn.
Eventually, when the sojourn draws to a close, you
are refreshed and ready to look routine in the eye. That lasts a few weeks;
then the soul begins to stir; your mind turns once again to the impromptu life
in Goa and the serene experience of green rice fields, large rivers, lovely
beaches, calamari, clams, shrimp and beer. So you go back again and spend
another few days, unmindful of time. In that sense, it is a slice of
immortality.
As you grow older and begin to see life’s finite
horizon, such experiences gain in importance. You realize you may have done okay
for yourself if, in your later life, you can indulge in such spiritual
pursuits. As you plan another journey into timelessness, thoughts hearken
ahead to the new restaurant that’s just opened; succulent figs for breakfast; shrimp
curry and rice for lunch; for dinner, chilly fry; dessert, custard apple ice
cream; pickled green peppers in the fridge and the very dry vodka martini which
their corns will flavor.
But wait…why can’t we disrupt routine more
often? Is the impromptu life only available in Goa or some other such idyllic
place? Of course not; it is a state of mind, as I recently discovered.
Having slept over at our house on a Sunday not
too long ago, our granddaughter awoke early and climbed into our bed, making
sweet sounds in her own dialect: “Wake up, sleepy head,” she seemed to be
saying. My eyes opened and she smiled. I knew immediately then, Monday or not, there
was no going to the office, no newspaper…even my tea remained undrunk.
Soon we were in the garden, chasing after birds
and chipmunks. Of course, they disappeared; so we spent time scanning the skies
and trees, whistling, gesticulating, making noises: trying to lure them back. Finally,
the sapping heat got to me so we shifted the impromptu show indoors and went
upstairs to sit directly in front of the air conditioner.
Then she happened on the remote control. Well,
if we were going to watch TV, I felt Discovery HD was the best option for a stunning
visual and learning experience. Except that we came upon the Cartoon Network
while surfing…and lo and behold, it was the Tom and Jerry show, with Brahms’
Hungarian Dances as the soundtrack. So heads leaning together we watched as
Jerry outwitted the cat every which way.
Another work afternoon, we took her to a playground
in a nearby mall where she climbed up slides from bottom to top and ran around among
the ingenious sprays that kept the place cool with their mist on a sultry day. Equally
thoughtful were the soft cork board tiles that lined the playground…no scraped
knees or elbows, no tears, no fears. Then last week, we took the time out of a
weekday morning to take go swimming with her.
There was a time when even a half-hour delay in
reaching the office would upset me. The pride and joy of my professional life
was never missing a day of work, arriving early, leaving late. Things began to
change when our house in Goa was ready to be occupied some dozen years ago.
Suddenly, a new appreciation of reality dawned:
time isn't all about achievement. It’s about books read, movies seen, friends
met, food enjoyed…or just sitting in an armchair, nodding off moments after flipping
on the television set.
Years ago in a psycho-linguistics class, we
learned the distinction between nominal definition, chair and operational
definition, thing to sit on. This
disruption of ritual, which includes squandering of time and indulging in sensory pursuits, is living the impromptu life. The
nominal definition is loafing.
The key is to let time wash over you; not watch over you and bind you with punitive
schedules.